I Think I Made My Doctor Uncomfortable Today...

Welcome to Cycle 4, Day 17. The second follicle scan for this cycle was today.

And nothing had changed.

Nothing.

Everything looked the same, nothing had grown, and so no injection was done.

And then I was asked if I wanted names to see infertility specialists as that may be the next step if we are serious about wanting our family.

Which is when I lost it.

I had A on one side hugging me, and the doctor on the other side squeezing my shoulder. And I don't think either of them knew what to do.

Believe it or not, I went to work. After the exam, I dropped A off at home and headed to the office.

Where I lasted 2 hours before I was so nauseated and looking so bad that they told me to go home.

Where I then slept for over 3 hours and woke up thinking about things.

We have some decisions to make about things right now. But this isn't the end. The doctor did agree to increase the Chlomid to 200mg a day, and if we want to try another couple of rounds she will support to us.

I have told her to expect a call after the 1st of the new year if nothing else happens on its own. Then we will try again.

Meanwhile, it's time to think about what is next after that cycle for us....

I am just so tired of crying.