Thursday, March 25, 2010

Cycle Day 21

Almost every site and book tells you that implantation occurs 7-10 days after fertilization. Some women experience cramping or spotting, and everyone says this is a good thing because it means you have succeeded.

Taking that into account, I would be lying if I told you that I didn't pause at every cramp-like twinge in my abdomen. That I contemplated getting a mini-Maglite to take with me to the restroom to check thoroughly for spotting.

I have to admit that if they sold a CSI type kit that you could use at home to check the lining of your underwear for the pregnancy hormone that I would have ordered one.

After what happened in January I refuse to even look at a pregnancy test right now. I don't want another false positive, and I think a negative would send me into a spin. I am continuing to focus on packing and prepping for the move. We'll be gone in roughly 4 weeks, and still have things to do.

But I can't help it. I want a baby. I want to be pregnant.

Please, oh please, let it happen this time.

1 comment:

  1. I'm a couple of days ahead of you and having the same thoughts. 2nd m/c was in Oct followed by a chem preg and I'm on my first round of clomid.
    I've got my fingers crossed for both of us and saying prayers every 30 seconds it feels like.